Memoirs of an Assassin

A chilling glimpse into the mind of a professional killer.

In this unflinching fictional memoir, an unnamed contract assassin breaks his silence to reveal the methodical world of sanctioned murder. Operating in the shadows across Europe, Asia, and beyond, he has eliminated over twenty targets with surgical precision—each death carefully planned, expertly executed, and perfectly concealed.

What emerges is not the glamorous assassin of popular fiction, but something far more unsettling: an ordinary man who has made killing his profession. From his accidental recruitment to his evolution into a disciplined predator, he details the tradecraft of death—the surveillance techniques, the weapons of choice, the psychological compartmentalization required to function in a world where human life is reduced to a contract price.

Written with stark honesty and clinical detachment, this dark thriller explores the banality of evil and the razor-thin line between civilization and savagery. As global surveillance tightens and his latest assignment threatens to be his most dangerous yet, he must confront the ultimate question: in a world that creates monsters, what separates the professional from the psychopath?

Part psychological study, part procedural thriller, "Memoirs of an Assassin" is a disturbing meditation on morality, isolation, and the true cost of crossing lines that can never be uncrossed. A haunting exploration of what it means to be human when your humanity is your greatest liability.

About the Author

Grant Rayner's adult life began in the military, where he served over 13 years as a soldier, non-commissioned officer, and officer in infantry, special operations, and intelligence roles.

After leaving military service, he established himself as a security and crisis management consultant. Since 2012, he has run his own security consultancy, that has supported global companies and NGOs across Asia and the Middle East. With over 20 years of experience in the field, he has traveled extensively and supported clients during and after a range of complex crisis events.

Grant is an established author, having written more than 10 non-fiction books on security and crisis management. This is his first work of fiction.

His photography has been exhibited internationally, and his side projects include designing discreet and durable travel bags under the Station XV brand.

Grant lives in Singapore and can often be found writing in cafes around the world. He is definitely not an assassin.